“ranches of isolation” is a phrase from a poem by W.H. Auden.
It seems to me that isolation is a large factor today. Larger and larger. Digital isolation replacing personal connections in a form of Alice in Wonderland twists. Many seniors are isolated.
In North America many people are living alone.
I remember when I got the news about my kidney disease. I realize more completely now that I considered my life was over. I made quite a few bad decisions after that moment. Choices small, medium, large, and ginormous. I tried to connect but I think I also held back in those moments. Fear is a drag and cuts the lift from your wings.
Now I have been given the word to expect a kidney transplant within a year. I have no live donor. It makes me pause to reflect that someone will have to die for me to gain that kidney. I have been told that my general state of health is good and that a kidney will allow me to return to full, normal life.
I am doing my best to prepare and adjust to this news.