if it turn my head I get this view while undergoing a dialysis session
I am afraid to report that W.E.B. Griffin’s The Shooters is the most boring novel I have ever attempted to read. I am sad to report this since I have read and reread a number of books by Griffin, including most of the Brotherhood of Arms series and the Marine Corps series. He has given me many hours of entertainment. This one however stinks. The most illuminating fact offered in it is the historical speculation that Adolph Hitler lost a testicle to the teeth of a large breed of dog called a Bouvier de flandres. And Hitler did his best to have the breed eliminated from the planet. Max, a bouvier, plays a supporting role in The Shooters. Nice dog.
The muse has moved out. I keep scribbling but it seems to be even less coherent than last winter. The cats seem to appreciate the quiet scrape of pen over paper.
We were talking about clutter.
How the hell to get a handle on
the swamp of papers and files,
boxes of hurry, the need for some
secret method to make it all
perfect, when I saw the photo
you had shown me before,
your face between your mother’s
and your father’s at the dinner
for their anniversary, all the smiles,
but a different look in your eyes
or maybe I just add that after
you told me that the doctors’
lost you on the table that morning
for a short while and how you
knew you could go on to
the other side, but you weren’t
ready, there was more here for you.
much more than heaps of paper
much more than me
but that was ten years before me.
And puzzles and projects and
fixing things all appeal to my brain
which my body carries around for me
So I offered the only thought that has
ever made sense to me about
the idea of order.
“You have to decide the place
where things will go,
where they belong,
which ones to keep.
And then you have to clear that place
and lift them to it
Then you have to stick to it.
If you don’t, if you move
it to a temporary refuge you are lost,
the alligators will get you and the swamp
will fill in again.
Nature hates a vacuum.
It will be as if you were in a boat
with no oars, drifting,
waiting for the moon to show up
because you are alone and in the dark
and angry because you
have done it again,
done it to yourself,
as if we were really talking
about clutter and not about time
and not about the drifting emptiness
that we glimpse
that I recognize more each day
that burns my ass and turns me against
myself until I throw that out
the entire thrown together
accumulated mess of nothing
and nothing and nothing
much at all.
Like me and not the least bit like me
you want to wear alligator shoes
and go dancing until
the sun replaces the moon
and the coolness of the night air begins to heat.
I will take an order of that.
– copyright 2006 William J. Gibson –
it has been bloody cold of late and the dog and I are considering Tahiti as our new resting spot. several times yesterday and today he had to stop with his toe pads frozen and my gloved hands had to emerge on a chore of mercy to melt the ice for him. winter is the cruellest season.
Last night’s episode of The Unit, David Mamet’s tv drama about special operations operators in the US Army may have jumped the shark. That phrase may be obsolete since I have not seen it used much lately. Still I fear it is applicable here. Sergeant Dirt Diver was injured seriously during a mission insertion into the mountains of Chile. His team leader helps him get aid at a mountain monastery. Meanwhile back at the base, the powers of the Committee require a new objective be snatched. It is a doozy. It is the spear point that piereced the side of Christ. Wow. this artifact has supposed awesome powers to both heal and destroy. Sergeant Blaine suddenly an expert in short sword fighting beats several opponents who have spent years honing their sword fighting skills. But he wins anyway. I had to suppress some serious guffaws and chuckles. it remains my favourite show but I do fear the shark has been jumped. I do hope they will retreat from warrior fantasy and return to normal operations soon.
there are a few moments in my education when my brain kicked up and did the right thing. My old Biology teacher, Mr. Kosior asked us one fine day what the ignition temperature of paper was. It turned out that about a dozen of my classmates shared with me an interest in science fiction literature and had in fact read Ray Bradbury’s work, Fahrenheit 451. I raised my hand and supplied the information.
Mr. Kosior asked how many in the class had read the novel. About ten put up their hands. He went on to make the point that what we learn is not limited to what we learn in school and that school is not a separate box that has no connection to the rest of our lives.
Had a little bother last night during dialysis, a leg cramp in my right calf, hurt like a son of a gun, had to abandon the session with 13 minutes to go. Just couldnot get the leg to settle down. The drive home was okay, no snow falling. I do sometimes think there are ghosts on the road home. Or at least my brain keeps conjuring up obstacle to my path. little visual miscues. Does help keep one on one’s toes.
Reading Team of Rivals about Lincoln’s cabinet. I imagine the President-Elect has browsed this recently. I was surprised to see rumours of Panetta as CIA head.
It begn with putting out the garbage and racing off over the snow covered roads to amedical apointment. the light reflecting off the ice covered snow made it a memorable if near coma inducing expedition. I got lost in beautiful downtown Barrie, Ontario. My cell phone which was running on electron vapours helped me reach the Doctors office and get the word that we would have to resched for Thursday. I went off for some recreational shopping. I had to buy some new polaroid clip on shades for my glasses to give me a fighting chance of not hitting another car or some darned pedestrian, let alone a snowbank. They fit fine and worked wonderfully. Then made the major positive find of the day. I found the Barrie Public Library and discovered that my Midland Public Library Card would net me one for Barrie’s Library free of additional charge. It seems a comfortable welcoming space and I plan on returning there to scrape pen over paper in the very near future. Then I made my way to my lunch date with my sister. We made it to Moose Wisnowski’s (apologies to the herbivore if I spelled that incorrectly) and had a nice meal. One thing we went over was our new plan for a final declutter which means another week long bin rental. More on that later in this space.
they keep sliping away like wine gums loose on custard and the baby bears are not hunting terribly well. letters are not coming in, with so many methods of technology for communication available, it seems a shame but it is cold and tactile and too real to be shrugged off, like an old sweater with too many moth holes running in to too much wind and rain — i used to know a joke that would have solved it admirably but I seem to have lost it along with all my friendships. too leaky for the bathtub fleet of arms, barrage balloons can cut the tender part right out of your arm, the stuff of ravelled sleeves and even strokes, a marble rolling over the cold grey floor, no kitten free for pursuit. the clown is hodling his red nose and stuffing asparagus under his collar stays, there is a crow counting coups in the corner, the pie is done and cooling, just liek a Supermarine Swift.